Battered and bruised we re-emerge from a new and unconventional womb of our own fabrication. How are you? Really? Doing?
Who do you trust? Who are you? Will you choose to re-enter the world? Or have you discovered a part of yourself that is too precious and comforting to ever share with anyone outside your inner circle again?
This following story is an uber-distilled version of my patient's experience. And we are sharing it** because it may help another fellow female professional, or fellow human, facing their own personal Epic Hero Journey.
Nameless female: "The four incidents of #domesticviolence I endured during this pandemic have changed me. I may have single handedly tripped the numbers by letting it happen so many times like a dum dum. But loving another human makes you do weird things.
I thought for sure I would be a wreck after the last one, but my body now has a renewed desire to absorb power on the daily from god-only knows where! I cry now. But not for days and weeks. For minutes and seconds. Because I realize that I had the power along (my dear!) And was blind to it, if not fighting off with a 10 foot pole of self-pity and self-hatred.
I alone have the power to decide my own fate, what I want to do every day for the rest of my life, how to be happy, creative, healthy and productive. Nobody else. Not my daddy, my baby daddy, nor the monster of the covid pandemic who broke into my home and beat me to a pulp for no good reason a few days ago.
I have taken a vow of silence to most, save through my writing. And that is where I shall continue my path as I believe many will either get a kick out of my bloopers and mishaps or learn from them. The frustration I have with my life decisions now is nil, because I am the only one considering them, making them and living them.
I am many things besides a ****. I have so many projects in motion, designed to disrupt the **** field and help as many people in as many ways as possible. Returning to the conventional day to day grind is not in my cards. I serve best from the comfort of my laptop. From there I am free to be a ***, an ******, a ****, a ****, a *****, a fur mommy, lazy, raunchy, productive, provocative, goofy ... all of which are my favorite things ... Maria Von Trapp, you amahhhzing wench! <3
What this incident, this man, this monster has taught me...1) save yourself 2) you are alone 3) only you can save yourself 4) stay alive to warn/help others of your mistakes and successes (your legacy.)" -End Quote
Will you be going back to the grind?
This woman won't.
She has reached out to me to start a conversation about forgiving.
She has already managed to forgive this man, over 4 times!! I realize Trump has been bankrupt more times than that...but THIS!!! THIS!!!! DESERVES THE UTMOST RESPECT!!! Libs,... just Namaste is all I can say and mean.
This woman has decided that, to this day, she will remain in this man's life as #spiritual and #human #support on his #journey through #recovery from #alcoholism. (Sorry 'bout all the #hashtags, I need to get the word out!!!)
I would like to involve my foundation, National Dental Giving Circle, in #leaningin2forgiveness. I pledge that a percentage of donations of goods, funds or services to National Dental Giving Circle will be used to treat both victims and perpetrators of domestic violence in conjunction with alcoholism recovery and based on many AA Principles.
Who do you trust? Who are you? Will you choose to re-enter the world? Or have you discovered a part of yourself that is too precious and comforting to ever share with anyone outside your inner circle again?
Let's #leanin2forgiveness and restructure our nests together and interconnectedly, in honor of this beautiful woman's valuable lesson learned.
#Restructuring from the plethora of changes that we have been inundated with since Covid started.
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** yes I have full authorization to disclose Mr. and Ms. Esquire